I can has positive thinking? 11:48pm, September 15th, 2008:
I feel it's been a positive few days. I have reinvigorated my creative juices (though, unfortunately in some ways, that is not a euphemism!) and suddenly been all kinds of active, mentally speaking. I have been secretly uploading written things here, as well as reviving my old deviantART profile and uploading stuff there too. It all showed up here first, but the plus side about dA is that I can just paste it in, write a description and get comment functionality and so on for no extra hassle! I have also actually got really creative and written something completely new! Complete with cheesy latin title and everything. How generous am I being this week? I imagine my webspace is suddenly able to understand the feelings of a drought-ridden, cracked piece of land that has suddenly been struck by a tidal wave and is not quite sure how to deal with it.

Also, instead of keeping a back-up journal page at 20six like I used to, for the occasions when this site went wrong or (more likely) I was dumb and forgot to renew the hosting, I am just going to use my main dA page in such events, since I already post bloggy type stuff there as it is. Also, it's bloody stupid and confusing to expect people to give even more of their valuable brain space to remembering to bookmark so many different pages! I have also half-updated the Links page and it's sub-pages, since a lot has changed there, but some of it's still out of date for now. Cleaning up and updating the whole site is an ongoing thing, and some stuff is not going to warrant its own post on the front page here, but it'll all show up on the mostly-just-for-my-memory Updates page. Today's is quite a big one, as I start tidying up old links and out-of-date info. Doesn't all that change and freshness feel goooood?

Anyway, that's enough of me saying stuff just for the sake of clarifying and tidying up after all this time. I'll let you get on with life and come back with something more opinionated and less factual in no time!
Go bookmark the dA profile though, if you are at all interested, as I'm being quite active there at the moment, trying to get it all up to date and start writing again.

All change please, all change. 11:52pm, September 10th, 2008:
That's definitely a record; 10 more days and it would have been a whole year since I last uploaded anything here. The annoying thing is it doesn't feel that long at all. I had it in my mind it was more like half that, until I looked at the date of my last post. Years are definitely not designed to blur by in an daze of work, sleep and forcing everything else into tiny pathetic gaps that are laughably called "holidays". I have too much creative and educational stuff to do with my free time to have to squeeze everything into 2 days a week because I spend the evenings mentally exhausted from dealing with people whose whole life revolves around fitting everything and everyone around them to their meaningless schedules and deadlines. I also definitely do not work well in an environment where I have to leave the friendly, patient person with a large problem waiting because the CEO is being whiny, selfish and impatient about his tiny problem that he could easily workaround for a couple of months with only a tiny bit of extra effort. Especially with his THREE PAs/assistants. THREE! For fuck's sake! Just because the name on his office door is more gold-plated than the paper cut-out name signs on everyone else's open-plan desks does NOT mean he deserves to jump the queue when he wants his e-mails to come out in a slightly darker shade of black. Bugger off and stop destroying my brain cells!
Whatever, I have to stick with it for now so I can afford to go to uni next September, and I certainly have a nicer bunch of colleagues than many people get lumped with, but the whole office and business ethic is draining my goddamn soul right out of me! People's priorities and opinions and self-centredness are just completely out-of-whack with what's really important in life! Get out of the fucking office and forget it all for a few weeks or something! Oh wait, you can't, you only get 4 weeks out of the entire year off and 3 days of that you have to allocate for the compulsory office closure at Christmas. What, you mean they don't give you Christmas off for free? Oh no, can't have people resting for more than 7% of the year, can we? Why is such a people-unfriendly working system still so dominant when we like to claim we live in an intelligent society? Work to live, don't live to work, people! 4 days a week should be the maximum you dedicate to earning a living, since the only reason you should be earning a living is so you can afford to spend the rest of your time, erm, LIVING!! Life happens first, fit work around that. Not vice-versa. If I ever stop believing this, I swear to all that is greater than our own plane of existence, I want you to shoot me dead right there and then because I will not be a human being any more. I could be no more serious about that!

Bah, anyway, pointless rant that won't change anything is officially over. The point being, I'm sick of being dragged along completely oblivious to the time that's passing me by, and I need all sorts of change. If you're still around, you may notice some of that change sweep through here. The website thing is high on the list, since a new design's been sitting there doing nothing for literally years now. Fuck me, that makes me feel old. I need to get young again, fast! Also, contrary to what the tumbleweed blowing through here may imply, I do actually enjoy rambling on and hoping someone out there is reading whatever crap I manage to output, because that way that person is paying me attention. I do love attention, me! As such, I will probably attempt to ramble on here at some point about any other changes I actually manage to pull off. Probably in more detail than you care to know, but tough monkeys - that's what I like to do! Starting with my new list of Autumn Resolutions. Yeah, in my sudden spurt of enthusiasm and motivation to refunk life in general, I decided I reeeally wanted to do some resolutions. Waiting for New Year is soooo last century. It's late now, and I'm tired, so I doubt I'll have the time and focus to make a comprehensive (or even comprehensible) list, so consider it an ongoing project. I'll make a note on the front page if and when I add more.

Finally, for now, because I want to go to sleep, I noticed some time ago (actually probably a couple of years ago but it feels more recent in site terms!) that Enetation is buggered, and as such commenting on posts here seems to have stopped working altogether. I will work on replacing that during a daytime somewhen soon, again because I'm an attention whore (and, you know, without comments it's just me talking to myself, and I can get that much easier offline)! Sorry for now, but then again most of you already know how to get in touch with me offline anyway, and if you're one of those mythical "random internet strangers" then you'll have to wait a bit while I get myself back into it all. Patience is a virtue, young grass-based insectoid!


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